5EW became a Code, My Artists code, its who I became i am, how I learned to create worlds, always using the same codes and symbols in various imagery, the paintings became the keys to the door that shined a light on the path to my concept art of Androdica.
Its not always flowers and ice cream, At this time in my life I struggled a lot, struggled a lot with my way of thinking, i was heavily saturated in thought, i couldnt turn off the noise, i was alone self willingly and had no idea why I wanted not to live, it was the Art that kept me going!!!
Through 2008 I became completely gave myself to science, i became a studie, i was intereged with the way my thinking patterens worked, i was well aware and conices that it was different. Time and space. Are you know if it was just a normal thing to be so aware how expands, how time sustained expands space, I went crazy just thinking of theories studying ancient symbols, thinking about the future and what it will look like, I became obsessive-compulsive with the number three, and creating hey style that complemented the Science I studied.
As time passed, I noticed immediate changes and myself, in such a short time I had a full grown beard, I was able to hold conversation with myself. I saw no different than playing chess with oneself, I was making moves within art, I wasn’t just creating to create, but to find meaning so that one day I could gives substance to the world an enlightened humanity. I would always say to myself can “I, will I, I must.”
I think a lot, I know a lot of people think, and you can think what you want to think, but I thought so much, I thought for so long, that I experienced thought like painting, except no one can see, no one can take. I knew I was living too safe